What I needed to hear

Hello viewers!

Please forgive me for the huge gap in time between my last post and this one. I was consumed with school, work, and..well...life. The few times I thought about posting, I wasn't sure what to write. I love to write something powerful and meaningful, but I let worry, fear, burden, and the priorities to human beings get in the way and I didn't post anything. This post may not be powerful nor meaningful to anyone except me, but I needed to say this, out loud, where other people can read/hear it. God is good. I have been reading Jesus Calling by Sarah Young (a gift from my pastor and his wife) and every time I open it, I feel like God is using Sarah to speak to me. The message is always about something I am currently battling. Today's passage was about trust. Yes, I say I trust God, as do many others, but do any of us really, truly, full-heartedly, trust God completely? I can't speak for you, but I cannot honestly say yes. I wish I could, but it would be a lie. Often I worry about what others think of me more than what God thinks of me. I sit here and plan for things that will not occur for five, even ten years. It makes the present a little brutal, but I do it anyways. Bad things keep happening in the present because I am too focused about tomorrow. Sarah quoted Joesph in today's passage saying to his brothers "You mean evil against me, but God meant it for good." No matter what happens in the future, how bad life becomes, how many tears I shed, how depressed I become, or how insane I go, God means everything for good. Satan loves kicking me (and everyone else) when I'm down and he's done that to me so much this year. I can't, no, I won't let him take my soul. I belong to God and I know that all of these hard times are the stepping stones to something greater. I hope all of you are touched by this like I was and we can help remind each other the importance of focusing on God and His never ending love!